between missions trips

as some of you may know that i am a missionary by heart and calling but right now i am here in the states waiting to get re-applyed my the almighty. meaning i have to get called to go back out because if i don't have gods backing its like doing work without getting paid its ok but its not quiet as effective if i am not backed by him and also that is not what i am about i want to serve the lord and savior as he comands not as i choose. its part of the whole dying to myself thing that i still don't fully understand but all i know is that i let him make the choice i mean not like what i am having for lunch, tho sometimes that would be nice, its more like what im going to do next what college or country to spread his word in next. to tell you the truth its worked out pretty well for me so far. i mean how many 17 year old girls do you know that have been to 6 countrys 4 of which are in south east asia, have there GED because they were called to drop out of school. going to a crazy hard core internship and plan on being a missionary in a 3rd world country so far im the only one but if you meet one let me know i would love to hear her or his i guess storyies about what gods been doing in there lives.
Well so far right now im in prayer mode but i know for a fact that i am going to be in the states for at least a year because of my internship. after that im not sure but i know that god will let me know. i can't wait till i find out i personally hope that is is something wild and crazy like move to cambodia live in a tiny village and marry a Cambodian man. but thats just me it he calls me to stay here get a job at subway and marry some joe shmoe that i have known since i was 3 thats ok to but i know that god has great plans for me. sometimes its hard to wait. but other time it seems so easy when you realize how much we really have here. after this weeks election it makes me want to move even fast i mean don't get me wrong i really don't mind seinor Obama its just a few of his ideas that we could live without or the fact that some of his ideas really make it so some people don't live. im talking about abortion if you didn't catch that i am very pro-life but thats another rant for another day
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